Wednesday, May 25, 2016

I have loved developing friendships in Richmond. The past few weeks have been full of a lot of goodbyes. 

The most surreal part is that we will have dinner or they have a little get together for me and then we all say goodbye, I leave, and they continue to plan their lives without me. It's so strange to be in a moment that is so perfectly suspended in change. 

Monday, May 23, 2016

We are moving to Birmingham. After the initial shock and the realization that this really was the best possible outcome (of course that's what we would be saying, but truly it is the best program, just far), we are now in the midst of getting ready to move. Today is Monday. Friday is my last day of work. I have applied to dozens of jobs now, have one offer and one pending. I like the pending one more, so crossing my fingers that nothing falls through. Gustave graduated last weekend. He is now officially a doctor.

Next Tuesday we start packing the truck and driving the ten hours to Birmingham. Next Wednesday our new lease starts. Just as we had known, there was a lull and now everything is happening all at once, very quickly. Our new apartment is downtown, a 15 minute walk from the hospital. The building is brand-new and looks amazing.

Now I am prepping to make a large move and then there is a lot of blankness on the other end. So much unknown. So again, there is a lull and then things will begin happening all at once, very quickly.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Night before match.

Looking through Twitter #match2016 and trying not to cry/vomit/scream.

Here goes nothing...

Saturday, March 12, 2016

Monday we find out if we matched. Friday is the match. 6 days. Mini heart palpitations until then.

Monday, February 22, 2016

We are less than a month away from Match.

Now the feelings of helplessness are starting to creep in a little more frequently.

We decided on UVA as our #1 choice and I think that they are a realistic option for matching. I started to put out applications for Charlottesville, even though it's sort of ridiculous at this point. I had an interview at UVA and had to explain that, actually, I don't even know if we're moving there. We might be moving to another part of the country. The interview went well, but I felt defeated after. It made me realize that the big changes are coming again.

Monday, December 14, 2015

I know you're not supposed to wish for time to speed up...

I am so ready for a change. If I were in a normal situation, I would have been in a new job by now. I need something different. I feel undervalued. I talked to my boss about it and she agreed, but basically did nothing to support me. There are a lot of empty promises of support.

We went to the UVA dinner last night and we loved it. Gus loved his interview today, too. Charlottesville is a great city and I would love to live there. In 3 months we will know. I just need to make the most of things for now, but it's getting difficult.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

I used to take such fulfillment from my job. Now it's such a small part of who I am.